always and never
Wrote this last night on my computer at home that doesn't have a modem:
I�m typing this in Word in a really big font size like it�s a movie or something.
It always comes down to the words "always" and "never".
Well, in spite of the fact that I�m a card-carrying Buddhist (just kidding, there�s no card), in recovery groups, and just a generally nice guy, it seems that I am completely unable of having any king of intimate human relationship.
What a weekend. My housemate got back from a Zen meditation retreat and told me that I should start looking for another place to live for the moth of January. Cute, real cute. My Mom�s coming down to visit me from the 15th to the 26th and Winter quarter (HTML and C++, yay!) starts on January 2nd
She says she�s 55 and just wants to live in peace and doesn�t want to have a housemate that she doesn�t feel comfortable speaking up about her grievances with. I never noticed. She wants to be able to say the words "always" and "never" and I guess I�ve got issues with them.
For example, "Everytime I am vunerable to you, you always get so smug, and you�re never supportive." I know she doesn�t mean always and never, but the first thing that always think is that it�s not true. I�m not always any way.
Jeez, I�m a new blogger and don�t quite know how to do this. Should I wrap it up with some succinct point encapsulating it all, or should I just let it end�a dangling thought; just like real life?