always and never
Wrote this last night on my computer at home that doesn't have a modem:
I’m typing this in Word in a really big font size like it’s a movie or something.
It always comes down to the words "always" and "never".
Well, in spite of the fact that I’m a card-carrying Buddhist (just kidding, there’s no card), in recovery groups, and just a generally nice guy, it seems that I am completely unable of having any king of intimate human relationship.
What a weekend. My housemate got back from a Zen meditation retreat and told me that I should start looking for another place to live for the moth of January. Cute, real cute. My Mom’s coming down to visit me from the 15th to the 26th and Winter quarter (HTML and C++, yay!) starts on January 2nd
She says she’s 55 and just wants to live in peace and doesn’t want to have a housemate that she doesn’t feel comfortable speaking up about her grievances with. I never noticed. She wants to be able to say the words "always" and "never" and I guess I’ve got issues with them.
For example, "Everytime I am vunerable to you, you always get so smug, and you’re never supportive." I know she doesn’t mean always and never, but the first thing that always think is that it’s not true. I’m not always any way.
Jeez, I’m a new blogger and don’t quite know how to do this. Should I wrap it up with some succinct point encapsulating it all, or should I just let it end…a dangling thought; just like real life?