tonight I just got so tremendously inspired. it's so very strange, the idea of living life as art. one wants to do it, but then once one tries, then it seems to generate this kind of arrogance that one is behaving so mindfully and everyone is asleep lit
I don't think arrogance is very artful, though, so that's some kind of stumbling block. Or maybe not, maybe being aware of the arrogance is a good first step. But then it's easy to get arrogant about that. It seems like there's this constant unmasking to mindfulness, like I realize that it's just one act after another. I drop one act and then realize that there's an actor dropping that act, too. Doing the inspired act and then the arrogant act and then the humble act and then the...
I wonder what is behind all the acts? What am I acting for? Who is acting?
I do not know.